Sara | Bipolar Disorder

When Sara was a teenager she became depressed and was placed on antidepressants in order to alleviate the symptoms, but within 3 months the antidepressants triggered her first manic episode, during which she ran away from home and landed in the ER with a Bipolar Disorder diagnosis. She doesn’t remember much about that first manic episode, but she was apparently so manic the ER doctors knew immediately. Despite her new diagnosis, Sara did not begin to take medicine to curb her mood swings until her parents told her that she could get her driver’s license when she became stable. Soon after starting the new medicine regime she began doing well in school again, and was seemingly alright until college when she had a depressive episode that lead to a suicide attempt and an inpatient hospitalization. While she can usually spot a manic episode coming, her depressive episodes come on “slow and steady” and are harder to catch. During one manic episode she opened store cards for Old Navy, Ann Taylor Loft, and New York & Company. She also had a Discover card with a $5,000 limit. Within 2 weeks she had maxed out every one of those credit cards and didn’t have the money to pay the monthly bills. She ended up dealing with her cards being sent to collections because she didn’t have the means to pay the bills, and ultimately she ended up filing for bankruptcy because of all of her debt.

She attempted suicide once more several years later, after writing her will on her apartment walls, which landed her in the hospital both for health and psychiatric reasons for 2.5 weeks. After that hospitalization she came to realize that suicide was never an option, but she still had bouts of depressive episodes where she would drink heavily, completing a bottle of wine every few hours and immediately opening another. She describes her depression as feeling as if she’s in a hole in the ground, with dirt being thrown on her and she can’t get out.

She currently carries only one credit card with an $800 limit for emergencies, and attends both therapy and psychiatric appointments regularly. She has been stable for many years, working to shelter the homeless and provide hope for people who struggle themselves.

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